May 26, 2009

Quest for my goal


Sorrow hovered over me a like the dark cloud
Blocking the sun’s rays from reaching me
My hopeful peeks into my future were blinded
By the piercing glare of my impossible goal
I tried to block the light with my hands
And that was when I found out I was invisible,
and why my screams reached deaf years
I tried to move forward to my goal
But found myself tied to my putrid past
by the laughter around me:
You are too insignificant.
You won’t make it. What a joke!

Holding back tears, I fell on my knees.
They had finally opened the oak door that
I had tried all my life to keep locked
And all my nightmares came onto me,
to further lower me into my grave.
I stood there with a drooping face
waiting for defeat to capture me.
Like dew refreshing a dying flower
I felt a cool mist surround and rejuvenate me
The love of those who cared for me,
those I have abandoned for my quest for the stars.
I let the tears from my crimson eyes
wash away the sin I had committed.
Closing myself onto me
my dream on my mind,
I walked towards my goal.


Its Priya Joyce's birthday on 27th and i wish her a really wonderful birthday..
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May 20, 2009

Cursed Word



Well guys, this is my first attempt in 55 fiction.



Her words were deep cuts to his heart. The perennial smile on his face faded away.
"Is there someone else?" he asked.
"Leave me alone, just go"
With a heavy heart and welled up eye he slowly turned and left.
Holding back tears she opened the wrinkled paper and reread the cursed word - Leukemia

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May 12, 2009

Craziest Dreams...



Every time I dream at night, I wake up feeling just as excited and thrilled as watching a suspense thriller Hollywood movie. Almost all of my dreams have all the ingredients for a block buster thriller movie – suspense, action, fear, adventure. :)

The interesting thing is that I’m having these dreams long before I knew there was a world outside the four walls of my house. I think my oldest dreams are the most exciting and enigmatic ones.

Ill just tell you about one such dream. I remember having this same dream for more than two or three times. In it, there is a man standing in a deserted area, it kinda looks like set with white background and there is a long string attached between two short poles (but it’s a bit more complicated than a simple pole). He then slowly walks forward till he reaches the string. Then I would see him getting closer and closer to the string that too in slow motion until the separation reaches microscopic level. He then finally touches the string, and then something happens that I really don’t understand. A small globe will be formed and it will get bigger and bigger sucking in everything around it. This getting bigger part is the most frightening one, I don’t know why I was frightened by this but I could fell the globe consume the entire world around and then it explodes in a flash.



As I grew up and was in primary school, I had normal scary dreams... the most common being dogs chasing me ;) . Whenever they are in hot pursuit on me, I would either feel like the being immobile or in slow motion or the door of my house which was supposed to be the safe house would move away from me for apparently no reason at all. But I never got caught :D

Later years fell victim to the falling dreams.



On one such dream, I imagine the earth to be made of shells, hollow inside with more shell like earth inside it. Kinda like onion with separation between the peels. And there would be holes or large gaps on each of these layers through which people would fall from one layer to the other. In this dream, there would be millions of others around, either falling with me, or holding on to the edges of the gaps. The scene is similar to a hell like one with a reddish orange sky n all.

There is another falling dream; it’s not scary, but a nice one. It is similar to bungee jumping but without ropes. In it I would be falling, no I would jump intentionally from a tall building or once from even a coconut tree ;) . And I really enjoyed the weightless feeling while plummeting towards the ground. It also does hurt while reaching the ground.

You think I’m crazy? Wait for more ;)

Once I dreamt of an exact movie scene, with me costarring with none other than Arnold Schwarzenegger and Batman :D .How cool is that? I and my buddies ;) were fighting bad guys in a big hospital (I guess the inspiration was from Die Hard, just the change of scene).The incident is at night (may be because of Batman’s involvement) and I remember saving Arnold from a potentially fatal fight. :)

I think this is the first time I have identified someone else in my dream. Of course none of the characters had recognizable faces, but I just knew who they were. Another thing is that almost all my dreams are in Black and White but I just feel the colors :)

I have had lots of such dreams which I don’t remember now. But I remember one climax in which I was terrified to death, but suddenly the scene changed and I saw my mother sleeping beside me (that was inside the dream) and I hugged her and went on to have a nice deep sleep after that. :)

Well no guys dream story is full without dreams of girls ;)

In almost all of my dreams about girls, I was just talking to them. Just talking, only the scene changes, if it was the train one time, it would be in the college the next time or somewhere else.

Yeah, and one time I dreamt of going to the moon along with Tom Hanks and Saurav Ganguly :) I’ve also had dreams about my school, after I passed out of it, but all the time, the scene was in and around the toilet. I really don’t know why ;)

I guess thats all I can remember, now its your turn to share your CRAZIEST dreams :)


I dedicate this post to Deepika Gupta who has been asking for a happy post from me for a while now... ;)

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May 6, 2009

My Reflection


Their applause and encouragement were drugs to my blood. I was more active, happy and felt like i could do anything with them around me. Everyone around me encouraged me to sail along. Everything was in my favour, the pleasant sun, the cool breeze sailing past us, the beautiful butterflies feeding on the dazzling flowers, the chirrups of the small birds flying around - I was in heaven. I could see happiness in every eye that met mine.

But in that ecstatic state, i slipped. I was carried away too far by the encore and one mistake was all it took. There was dead silence all around.
I was lost.

With a bleeding heart, I looked around for a caring soul, for a loving heart, for a smiling lips only to stare at the emptyness around me. Tears ran down my eyes washing away any trace of euphoria that had once played along. Slowly the tears feel onto the river below me blurring my own reflection staring back at me in silence.
My only friend.
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May 1, 2009

The Brightness of Truth


I peeked out into the wonderful world outside
From within my parents shell around me
And waited eagerly for the fine day
I would be granded wings on my own.

With a heart spilling with emotions
I stepped out of the broken shell.
Crushing its pieces under by feet,
I walked out into the brightness.

In the light that has been shielded by my shell,
I saw the world as it really was.
No longer under a filter, my heart slowly learned
The stinking truth of the real world.

Where lies roamed free without a reason,
A hidden sneer always tailed a plastic smile,
Where some fasted for a better posture,
While other to hide their hunger.

Where people killed like dogs in the streets,
While others learned to blind themselves
And to stare at their own paths
Where the only mantra was "I, Me and Mine".

I tried to shield myself and ignore it
But the blanket around me slowly faded away.
I found myself stink with the world around me.
I had finally become a part of the chaos.

Around me I heard sound of cracking shells
Eager faces glancing out of their breaking shells
To stare into the unknown world,
And to face the brightness of truth.
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